having you completes me.

tired.//*

2004-11-14T22:26:00.000-08:00

so bored..
today wanted to go kbox de..
but my mum didnt allow.
so never lorrh.
but must go once by friday cox got discount for me!!
haha.
my cousins came for the past two days.
celebrated because girl girl got 7 As.
so smart.
unlike me.)=
so sad.
*ahem* went to m'sia for TWO weeks.
i'm so going to get bored to death.
tuesday got training again.
so tired..
so many things happened recently.
i think i uhmm.
dont know how to say.
but never mind.
so late lerrh.
want to sleep.
these few days always wake up at 1 or 2..
sure die de.
hais.
become FAT lerrh.
die.
ok la.
going to sleep lerrh.

=)

2004-10-24T20:58:00.000-07:00

isnt it wonderful?
its darren's birthday today.
happy birthday darren!
wish you good luck always!
anw.
i went towning today again.
at first was finding my ke ai nu er..
ching ching!!~
then she was waiting for her friend.
so i went to shop with her "father".
but his good idea of skate boarding really made me very "interested".
he made me feed mosquitoes there for an hour.
when we walked over to cine.
there were alot of pro break dancers.
they were so cool!!!
my god.
i almost fainted.
and almost went deaf.
haha.
then we went to find some ppl.
darren, febian, xiangwei, joey, yulin, huifen, daryl, yuanxing, yongteck, and forgot who else.
then we continued watching until i decided to go home.
jianqing and joey disappeared soon.
so i flagged a cab home.
end of today.

2004-10-20T22:28:00.000-07:00

i pon-ed skool today.
how naughty.
but i went skool at about 3?
then everyone was like so surprised.
i cabbed down with jiali to find ch.
but some 2 ppl told the cab driver go clementi.
so we ate at kfc with them.
then cab down to find ch at holland v.
at bk.
with keli.
then cab back to skool.
jiali and i went for the workshop.
while the 2 of them went to play bball.
my god.
i was tortured during the workshop.
they made me a blue bird!
eww.
i think i looked horrible.
i didnt even dare to look.
haix.
now still got a bit on my face.
anw.
i dont know if i wanna act.
i cant sing!!!!
i dont know la.
see first.
if mr tseng begs me.
haha.

tired.//*

2004-10-19T21:18:00.000-07:00

-yesterday-
went to watch ouija board.
that horrible korean ghost show.
after that he decided not to go training so we went towning.
to the normal places again.
came home at about 7.
my mum almost killed me.
she almost grounded me for this week.
i can die.
just because she heard someone say there was a rape case at heeren.
*do i look as if anyone would want to rape me?*
so i went to beg her to let me come out.
and i did.
-today-
went towning again.
i almost died shopping with pam.
at first i met darren and gang at cine.
then sam and pam called.
so i went to meet them at taka.
we ate at kfc.
then walked to heeren.
met nan sujing vanessa and wanping.
said hi and bye and we went on to cine.
just walked ard and then went to wisma.
again.
then sam went to topshop and then we went to surfbabe to admire pam's beloved bikini.
the one that costs 70 buckx.
and the one that she wants sam and i to buy for her birthday.
please.
its not 7 bucks.
then went back to cine take neos.
we took 4 machines today.
wow.
and on friday we're going out again to celebrate pam's birthday.
i wanna go seoul garden!!!
but all of us agreed on going to kbox again.
haha.
whatever.
then after that we went home lerrh.
i reached home at 7 again.
mum WASNT pissed!
wow.
miracle.

feeling down...

2004-10-16T18:45:00.000-07:00

its been a longgg day.
at least to me.
i wanna runaway.
i dont wanna stay here anymore.
i hate myself.
i'm not me anymore.
what am i trying to do..
i cant.
i dont want to continue being this new me.
i want the old me.
help.
i dont want to control anybody.
its not that i like to.
its almost been 5 days since i have gone out with him.
i wanna go away..
i'm tired.
i dont wanna play anymore.
i'm exhausted.
i hate quarreling..
take me away.
i dont wanna stay here anymore.
help.

new skin!

2004-10-15T13:33:00.000-07:00

haha.
just changed the skin.
izzit nice?
there's one empty space there.
i dont know what to put there.
gimme some suggestions?
today ish saturday lerrh.
monday art paper i havent do the preparatory yet!!
going to fail lerrh.
monday i wanna go town.
i think i am going to bahx.
unless jiali cant go.
haix.
-yesterday-
jiali came to my house.
before that we went to eat at macs wth ch.
then met jq at kfc.
then we walk to devils with him.
then we go home he stayed there.
then me and jiali were "rebonding" our hair.
after that we went down to eat.
jiali ate speghetti.*eww*
and i ate nasi lemak.
*at least it looked nicer than speghetti*
we came up after that then were discussing about something when her mom called.
she left.
i slept.
woke up.
my mum asked me to bathe and change.
i was having a terrible headache.
wow.
and so i changed and took the new *von dutch* bag out.
omg.
i love it!
yeahh.
thats about it.
gtg.
takkaire.

oOps

2004-10-13T21:42:00.001-07:00

wha.
so long never update liaox.
sorry!!
haha.
important papers finally over lerrh.
so happy~
at least can relax a little.
-thepastfewweeks-
been studying.
i mean.
really studying.
not slacking.
i was so guai ok.
-monday-
had math paper.
damn difficult.
thankew koh may.
eww.
-tuesday-
had geog paper.
i almost died.
finally i got british council.
at least can slack a while.
it was quite fun.
and thankew jeremy.
for the notes.
it helped.
a lot.
happy birthday lionel!=)
-today-
science.
sucked.
last impt paper.
darren joey dominic jianqing and jiali came to my house today.
quite alright.
jiali was damn SWAY.
yeahh.

enough of blogging lerrh.
too lazy.
come on next time.

=)

2004-09-12T06:17:00.000-07:00

we patched.

- end of story -

2004-09-11T00:21:00.000-07:00

we've broken up.
thanx a lot for creating all the grief.
thanx a lot for giving me a happy period of time.
thanx a lot for staying with me for a short period of happy time.
thanx a lot.
thanx a lot.
but i dont appreciate it.
why must it turn out this way?
i dont understand.
maybe its me who is too...
wilful..?
and selfish.
i'm bad..
i shouldn't have fell in love.
studying is the only correct thing right..
haix.
still it was more than a month of being together.
everything is making me cry.
i hate stars.
i hate winnie the pooh.
i hate converse.
i hate rings.
i hate bits and pieces.
urgh.
i hate you.
i hate myself.
why must i meet you.
why must i see you.
why must i know you.
why must we be together at the start.
why is it like that.
*sobx*
think i have to be left alone for quite a few days.
quietly forget the grievance.
and hurt.
and hate.

b o r e d

2004-09-06T21:07:00.000-07:00

bored until die le!!
haix.nothing to do at home during hols.
i'd rather go to skool and listen to lkm.
nothing much to do at home.
*ahem* went to malaysia and is coming back only on friday.
but my dad says we're going there too.
on thursday.
so maybe can go meet bahx.
i want to go see *ahem*'s sister!!
haha.
lame.
saturday *ahem*,********and *ahem* came to my house.
whatever.
then we COOKED and ate.
it was quite okayy actually.
at least we did not make a mess out of ourselves.
and ******** was my er zi.
and both the *ahem* were ********'s er zi.
so we were like a family.
haha.
so fun can.
but the only thing was that while we were playing.
*ahem* was surfing ****.
urgh.
how can someone be so disgusting?
eww.
i want to watch so many movies..
haix.
whatever.
k la.
end here.

s o r r y

2004-08-27T02:31:00.000-07:00

heyy.
so long never blog le.
so sorry.
cox i'm really very bz.
stupid sharon.
stupid sharon.
hmpf.
whatever.
heyy.
i really like him ok.
not *ahem* anymore.
please.
dont talk rubbish can.
its been over a month le.
forgot him long time ago.
please.
skool's been really sucky nowadays.
and my mummy too.
she's been objecting.
not from the start but starting to now.
whatever.
i'm starting to hate her.
sorry but i hate to hate her.
whatever.
end here.
gotta bathe le.
next week's tcher's day.
i;m so looking forward.
so i can see all the old friends again.
unlike these backstabbers.
urgh.

heex.

2004-07-27T21:30:00.000-07:00

heex.
i found my new love.
i love you~
rememberr i love you k.
but please..
dont smoke.
what am i going to do if you get any cancer or whateverr.
please dont k.
for mee.
haix.
anyway.
i really love him now.
not the other him anymore.
ok..?
dont worry k.
i love you.
muackx.
=D

bursting

2004-07-15T06:59:00.000-07:00

i'm so going to die.
haix.
stupid him.
he knows i like him.
stupid.
then go say i like someone else.
i know you dont like me larhx.
dont need like that mahx.
like you only.
also never say.
I WANT YOU.
very long never blog le.
too lazy.
but still push out time to.
actually doing IPW project de.
then dont know what to put.
then will get scolding from nan tomorrow.
haix.
wo ming ming xi huan ta de..
wei she me zhe yang zi....
haix.

dont know what to do...

2004-07-12T06:51:00.000-07:00

today stayed back in skool.
lied to my mum i was having softball.
but.
i dont know.
i just stayed back to watch patrick and ffebian's soccer match.
after skool.
serene sharon eillen and me were at the foyer until the soccer match started.
then darren bought fries for us.
but so soggy..
how to eat..?
so i never eat.
then continue watching until sharon and eileen started bullying me.
they took off my shoes and pull my shirt cann.
kaox.
so pervertic cann.
besides that.
we watched darren and gang lame-ing around.
so..
it carried on until about 5.30.
then i called my mummy.
then she came then i went home.
on the way she talked about something i didnt really want to hear.
i dont want to follow..
i dont want to listen to her..
i dont want..
i dont want.
i already cannot find myself now.
you expect me to do what you want me to do..?
i cant.
i'm not superwoman.
even superwoman has feelings.
i cant cann.
if it still continue like that..
i'd probably break down and die.
i would.
not by nature.
i will kill myself one day.
i will.
so painful.
no one can understand.
everywhere also i have to face the problem myself.
MYSELF.
no one is ever willing to help me.
its more likely i listen to other ppl than they listen to me.
no one does anyway.
all of them only want ME to LISTEN.
i listen.
but do they?
i am also a person.
i am also a person with feelings cann.

problems unsolved.[wo men bian cheng le shi shang zui shou xi de muo sheng ren]

2004-07-05T06:01:00.000-07:00

haix.
another term has started again.
skool started and i feel so...
suan.
haix.
i went to watch their match on thursday and friday.
all of them were so fuc*ed up.
dominic that dabian he got his leg sprained on the first match then got fouled out the second match.
hahs.
then on friday got the parents meeting thingy.
then after that was supposed to go for dinner with the 6 ppl gang.
but someone and someone wanted to go and eat with them.
i mean.
with that gang.
so vanessa, wanping and i went to holland v.
that stupid dont know who say holland v then we went there they call and say holland.
so we walked to that block.
then they called and say "go holland v"
we were like damn argh.
so walked to windmill in the end wensheng jianqing darren and him left.
so daryl yuanxing yongteck jac and us went to eat.
at BK.
but the other group was at KFC...
so sad.
i wanted to eat together.
haix.
then we left.
saturday i went to do routine shopping in malaysia again.
then came back on sunday.
i decided to go to church every week and be devoted to god.
that is.
if my mum allows me to go out.
but.
i really blieve in god lorhx.
i mean.
i already went a few times and i think its really.
very.
i dont know how to say.
but its like i go there then like dont know what.
hahs.
whatever.
i go there for god.
NOT ppl.
haix.
on wednesday they got match again.
i want to go...
but got softball.
hope its cancelled.
my mum dont know fa what kuang.
she took away my phone and say only weekends only can use.
what the.
i got a lot of troubles now.
haix.
decided to go for processing this saturday.
haix.
i am determined to forget him.
and i'm going to.
from now on.
so.
if you all know who he is..
dont talk about him.
okayy.
i am not going to get hurt.
i am not going to get played.
i am jian qiang nu ren.
ya.

2004-06-22T19:37:00.000-07:00

stupid la.
yest wanted to blog at pams hse.
then jan tan tze qi went to close everything.
so i heck la.
dont blog le.
anyway,the last few days din blog coz i was in malaysia.
my god auntie gave birth~
the bb..
so cute~
i also want.
hahx.
crazy.
derrick is his name.
so cuteeee~
yest went to pam's hse.
to STUDYY.
sam went also.
then we call cab for her after that dont know why got 2 cabs come.
lousyy.
i'm going to camp tmr.
hope i'm gonna be fine.
stupid shar.
last night conference never call me.
but last night i went shopping.
so...never mind.
i very good de.
on saturday like church day like that.
hj.pat.shar.serene and me.
went to serene's church then shar's church.
aLLright la.
i prefer serene's church.
got the songs so nice.
but we went to shar's church late thats why.
so no songs.
=((
but i still like serene's church.
ok la.
both also like.
*otherwise shar will kill me*
ok.
gtg.
blog lata.
byee.
i|u

love cannot be forced.let nature take its course.

2004-06-17T04:06:00.000-07:00

i know.
i may not be perfect.
but i am already trying very hard.
haix.
what do you want me to do.
dont understand why does he treat me this way.
am i that irritating?
dont understand.
i thought guys are supposed to be straightforward?
haix.
cant do anything.
i cannot force him.
rightx.
anyway,today was supposed to go town with serene shar and hongjun.
but then got tuition.
stupid.
so cannot go laRhx.
tomorrow going to go out bahx.
dont want to stay at home and slack.
and rot.
ya.
better get out.
...

* L O V E M E *

2004-06-14T08:12:00.000-07:00

I read a note my grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said," Boy you might not understand, but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy din like me none, but I loved your grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet, and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we supposed to meet instead
i found this letter and this is what it said

*If you get there before I do, don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores all through, I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down, Darling wait and see
But between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you..love me

I read those words just hours before my grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church where me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said those words to her
His eyes filled up with tears
*
And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you... love me

2004-06-14T07:22:00.000-07:00

hayy.
i maybe going to church~
heex~
but i think my mum dont allow.
she like very unhappy when i asked her.
but i sho want to go.
maybe can see him.
but then i scared very gan ga.
today i went out with serene sharon and patrick.
at first i say i can go but my mum say cannot.
so i fake to my mum say we go do project.
i very naughty horx.=))
we took two diffent machines of neos.
the first one damn ugly.
waste our money.
so sto0pid.
but the second one was quite okayy.
then we watched jack neo that show.
keep talking hokkien then patrick dont understand.
then the movie end all of us go toilet.
when we reached there the guys toilet cannot use.
then patrick went to another toilet.
so we go that one and say we would meet.
then when we go out patrick already there.
so fast~
after that we went in a few sports shop then go back.
i took the same train as them then realised wrong one.
i was supposed to meet my mum in town~
so i took the other way round back to the station.
then we ate at sakae for dinner and went to do a little shopping.
at tangs.
so boring.
i wanted to go to heeren or wisma.
anyway,i'm back now.

tired//*

2004-06-13T07:24:00.000-07:00

whao.
just came back from a day of shopping at JP~
so cool
i didnt really buy a lot of things, but i still love shopping.
shopping's great.
i have to write a draft for some transferring thing.
but i dont really know how to write.
someone please help~
i so feel like going to town tomorrow.
go to heeren take neos~
go to cine go kbox~
but no money$$$$$$$$$
ha|x.
whatever.
most likely i will be going.
unless my mum dont allow.
yes.

L E T I T B E M E ~

2004-06-13T07:18:00.000-07:00

i'm blessed the day i found you
i want to stay around you
and so i beg you
let it be me

dont take this heaven from one
if you must cling to someone
now and forever
let it be me

each time we made love
i found complete love
without your sweet love
what would life be?

so never leave me lonely
tell me you love me only
and that you'll always
let it be me

promise you'll always
let it be me~

i am sitting here looking at the stars waiting for you.

2004-06-10T07:19:00.000-07:00

i'm in malaysia now.
just came back from a day of tough shopping.
so tired.
i bought quite a lot lof things.
yeahhx.
and feeding the mosquitoes too.
i am at a "mini zoo" now.
my friend's house.
he has 9 dogs,1 cat, 1 tortoise, 5 rabbits, 3 guinea pigs, fishes, 2 frogs, and so on.
i really love the dogs so much~
they're so cute...
they're mix breed.
chihwahwa and bull dog mix.
so cute~
4 puppies.
i feel like keeping one too~
but my mum always didnt allow.
ha|x.
anyway, i think i will be going back tomorrow.
and i am so going to regret it.
i so feel like migrating here.
altough i hate the mosquitoes.
feel like studying here.
ha|x.
i want to migrate~

d a m n

2004-06-08T08:00:00.000-07:00

so tired.my gawd.
we had art for CIP today?
and finished about 12 plus.
then serene, ruyi and i decided to go eat at sp.
but ruyi and i played a trick on serene tell her we go le then ask her to go.
but we were still in skool.
but she found out anyway
after that we called sharon to come to my house.
then we met her at central.
patrick,hongjun,yuanxing,joey and daryl as well.
all of them came to my house.
then we went to the pool.
all of them wore BOXERS and the bball pants into the baby pool.
but sharon serene and i wore clothes instead.
and we went in first.
they came in after that but joey:"i allergic to water~"
whao.
lame excuse.
but then darren came soon after so the guys went to play bball.
but we stayed there and serene bought a drink for her dearest lao gong.
yeahs.
then three of us could not stand the mosquitoes so we went to change.
then we went down again to eat.
after eating then all of them went home.
at about 8 plus?
then mum was really angry because she wanted me to be home by 6.30.
and i was bloody late.
so she decided to not let me have my line until i am "guai-er"
whatever?
wait bahx.
but i know my number le...
heex.

b o r r o w e d g o d f o r a m i n u t e

2004-06-07T06:43:00.000-07:00

it was really fun during the trip to the otah,soonkueh and chin chow factory.
i bought a lot of things?
and didnt want to be seen on the bus.
i looked like i just came back from the market or some great sale.
awful.
this guy that went with us kept telling someone else about me?
and awful stuff too.
isnt it great.
ok,so what if i really like that guy?
does it give him the right to tell it to everyone?
your class sucks man.
tell you something?
i hate gossipers.
irritating freaks.
sound like some tabloids.
disgusting.
whatever.
then i went to make another ez link because i lost my whole wallet?
fine.
okayyx.
and huiqi told me about someone getting embarrassed when they were talking about me.
okayyx.
i believe it.
so?
it doesnt mean it is true.

w h a t a m i g o i n g t o d o w i t h o u t h i m ? ? ?

2004-06-06T07:28:00.000-07:00

i am so missing him.
its the holidays and i am missing him a lot.
anyway,my auntie promised a new line WITHOUT a new phone and i am so not appreciating it.
okayy,at least a new line.
but i hate my phone.
whatever.
going to skool tomorrow again.
there's a homec excursion to the factory or something.
hope its fun.
its bored at home and only the com's working.
bad sign.

2004-06-05T07:45:00.000-07:00

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2004-06-05T07:36:00.000-07:00

wHaO~i finally got a testimonial from darren didi.
so hArPiE s|a.
i went out today after the sto0opid english enrichment with nan and vanessa to watch harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban~
very nice.recommended.
we went at about 2.30?to collect the goodie.
then have to walk around for about 1 hour before the movie started.
so we walk here walk there so s|anx.
luckily time passed then we watch the movie.
after that we wenta far east to take neos.
nan so ch|o~
then dinner time was at cRyStaL jAdE~
my dad's birthday.
we saw jeff wang jian fu there.
he zhen ren very shuai~
heex.okayy.
thats about aLL.

i l o v e y o u

2004-06-04T05:10:00.000-07:00

just came back.
so tired.
we went to kbox and take neos again.
but this time pat chia came along.
but pam was the one.
that bitch.
make us wait for her.
we already said we were going out and she chose to go out with ***** first.
whatever?zhong se qing you.
heyy.
tomorrow is the last day of the english enrichment.
my friend bought a new phone...so sad.i also want~haix.no hope sia.
anyway,tomorrow i going to watch harry potter.so angry.everyone who i ask already watched.--->without me~~~~hmpf.
you people better remember about this loRhx.

2004-06-03T06:52:00.000-07:00

uhmmx.today was quite okayy.
but i'm looking forward tomorrow.
we're going to k-box and take neo-prints again~
=))
the enrichment course today was like boring totally.
after skool i had softball training.
but nan sujing and jorina witnessed an accident.
it was supposed to be sad but they come and tell us the story that time it was so funny.
okayy.
i met a lesbian~aRgHHxx~scary sia.
she say she love me and whatever shit.
so scaryy~~~
ok
gtg
byee.

thanx pam

2004-06-01T07:29:00.000-07:00

heyy.pam.thanx so much for this.anyway.today totally sucked.yeah.the stupid enrichment course was like.boring.the two bitches were totally dao-ing me.fine.i accept it bitches.the bbq thing was quite sad.HE did not come.next my 3 god brothers did not come too.okayy.at least yuanxing, hongjun and shaun stayed over.we were thong-ing until like about 3am?watched "the man with 2 brains" with them in the hall.yuanxing told febian about it huh.and he apologised for not coming.yeah.in msn.and left so quickly.dont know why i suddenly miss himm.friday going out with pam and sam again.pam.remember to bring the jacket worx.kbox is really cold.*shivers*guess i'll go first.byee.

a dream come true

2004-05-30T08:39:00.000-07:00

anyway, this is pam.
im helping cheryl to do up her blog.
and this bloody thing needs to have at least one entry to see the damn preview.
yea.
so no choice but to type some crap.
yeahs.
i am trying my best to make this blog all peenk.
i think i kind of succeeded.
by changing so many things.
into peenk.
even the tagboard-- the message font, the back ground and the smileys.
=D
erm. but the scroll bar couldn't be made into pink.
i dun know how to lah.
=))
this girl has just passed her 14th birthday.
im doing this on the night of the celebration with her friends.
hahs.
=))
shall give her a beeg beeg surprise when i tell her.
she loves k-boxing.
WITH ME.
hahs.
nevermind.
anyway, this blog is so dedicated to cheryl on her birthday.
takkaire.
hope you can tell this blogg everything that bottles up inside you.
=)

having you completes me.

tired.//*

=)

tired.//*

feeling down...

new skin!

oOps

=)

- end of story -

b o r e d

s o r r y

heex.

bursting

dont know what to do...

problems unsolved.[wo men bian cheng le shi shang zui shou xi de muo sheng ren]

love cannot be forced.let nature take its course.

* L O V E M E *

tired//*

L E T I T B E M E ~

**i am sitting here looking at the stars waiting for you.**

d a m n

b o r r o w e d g o d f o r a m i n u t e

w h a t a m i g o i n g t o d o w i t h o u t h i m ? ? ?

i l o v e y o u

thanx pam

a dream come true

i am sitting here looking at the stars waiting for you.